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Hi peers, today the nightmare is back. I see those images again. I know I am scared by I can't do anything. I felt so helpless......i wanted to stop it but it just can't be stop. People say that time can cure....they say pas is an experience.... but i think what i have given that time is alot more then anything else... in the end what i get i was upset... but i cloudn't do anything... Despite 3 years facing it or running away .. it doesn't help at all... the fear is there it has always been there...

Wha tever i gone through is definitely not a dream tis real... its there... the knife is there ... i can feel it ... it bleeding even till now... i'm afraid to tell anyone to let anyone sees it... I don't know if i can walk out... but whenever i try...it just hurts so much ....i really really wanna give up ...i really wanna leave all these feelings away ...but its just not working at all... I know i wou;ldn't be able to take it for long anymore .... i  am at the limit of my life but what can i do...i'm tired really tired... i just wanna go on a peaceul life and just end this timelife................



Time files....

Things come and go ...

Just like problems come and go....

Is the same, I just have to learn to accept it !!

I kept thinking about memories that we laugh at..

Whenever I pass by the areas we been too... I told myself it is really a good memories...

What pass is pass just like daily stuff...it comes and go.!!

Maybe I have been too stubborn to try to hold to something that has been broken..

I forgot, once is broken is broken...

~~ It can't be fixed anymore ~~

I have put in new songs which is more meaningful..

It is in Japanese tho but i love the lyrics!!

Alright that's all, hope to update soon again (:




Hi peeps, I am back again ...
Today i told him i want a cooling down period..
He really didnt try to contact me the whole day...
But still i know clearly if i ho theough a 3 months cooling down period ...i will denfinely break with him....
I really dont want that ...that is why i tried to call him/ text him ....he seems like he dont get it at all....

I really dont know what to do ....

I remember last time he told me..asking me to give him a chance again.... then how abt now...

Why did u change ...u even say if i wan break up then u cant stop me...

Why to me u seems like you are finding a thousand excuses to leave...
I really cant feel u by my side anymore...

The fears came back ....i got no one to talk to ....

I am bearing everything myself....
If you want to leave ...then just leave...if i cant accept it then force me to accept ...

I will slowly accept that i am alone....all alone!!
Hi guys, I am currently going through intership in a particular company..
I don't understand, is it wrong to think about your marks everyday?? Since i am just a intern student, shouldn't i worry about my marks more rather then other things..


Today, I fe;t so upset about what my supervisior said, still I can't talk back to her or try to fight for my right as I am a intern student, whatever I do reflects on my marks.

I try to explain this point to by boyfriend but it seems that he dosen't get it ..
We intern students get pay less than $800 every month and work like hell.

Is it wrong to even felt upset??
Why can't he try to understand me? my point of view?
I know he has gone through the working life more than I do, still can't he just put himself into my shoes???

I was so unhappy just now, instead of comforting me he said things like I think you are not ready to work in the real world...

I know the real work bu tat least the salary is better than intern. He just dont get it...

Sometimes no matter how much I tired to explain to him, he just dont understand!!

I don't get it, is it due to mis communications or are we talking different lanaguage??
Will he really try to understand me ?
If now is like this, in future will it get worse??

Is this man the one i want for the rest of my life??

He did hurt me over and over again... but he seems like he doesn't try to solve it..
I am always the one trying to solve it face to face with him to get back together again ...

Is just like now... I think he went to sleep!!
Haxi, why did i choose to be like this???

Sometimes i can't understand myself too!!


I learned my lesson, a lemon will always be sour..
Is time to stop being naive in life and trusting guys..
They are all the same.. no one is different ...
I will never give a third chance again ...
I felt that I will be stupid if I continue to be so naive...

I am not going to put back that trust again ...the worse is the end of it ...

So what if it the worse situation ??
It doesnt matter anymore...
I don't understand, why is mj so important to you. I am not afraid of you losing or winning money. What i care is you get addicated to it.

This is gamble, a kind of gambling. But this is more imprtant than meeting me.

I dont know if i am being unreasonable now or not. The truth is am very upset that you go mj. You already played mj for a few weeks ago. Imstead of resting, you still wanna go play mj.


No matter what i say is useless. Its your life after all. I can care or bother much. Sonce you like mj some much, i leave the decision to you. I will just be going out with my friend to chill instead.

So at least we are doing our own stuff. This will reduce unhappiness and misunderstanding ba....
I wonder this time am i doing the right thing??

Are all guys the same ?? Once they have it, everything will be different ..

No matter through attitude,behaviour etc

I am not sure about it..
I know if i see inconsistency in your actions, it makes me felt unsecure...

I felt sad ..sad...sad
Tears flow everynight
Fears surrounded in the night
Past flashes back pain
Pain cuts my heart
Wound open and salt goes in
The only difference it...wound cuts deeper even with salt on it...

I wonder....
Is this consider think too much
Or am i just like this ...




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